boom, boom, boom. i want ya in my room

I'm chillin' at Blair's aunts for the night. Thought I'd give Seth a break of seeing my face.
We're currently watching the Shinning by Steven King. Blair's sending shivers up my spin from saying red rum way to well. And the opening credits. Creepy shit man. Creepy shit.

Blair just said I'm ditching Seth to be the baby daddy. She said it like that fucking little boy. I should've never showed her this movie. Fuck. Oh well it's better then "IM GONNA FUCKING SCREW AROUND WITH WHOEVER THE FUCK I WANT WHENEVER I WANT BECAUSE IM A SINGLE BITCH!! AND FUCK FACE CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT."

Blair's making fun of me because I accidentaly let it slip that I think Tom Cruise is hot.
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I'm kinda pissed about Johnny leaving. Jamie and Brooke wanting to leave. Dally being a douche. Kristi being a little skank. The only people I'm happy at right now are Seth, Darry, KittyKat, Soda and Katie, Two-bit and maybe Steve. Probably not because he's Steve.
I really wanted to post but now I don't know why because i don't know what to say. Mostly that I'm peed at life a tad bit right now. And now Seth's going off to check out collages and shit. Well, in March.

La la la, Seth Seth Seth. He is my sunshine, my only sunshine. He makes me happy when skies are gray. You'll never know dear, how much I love him. Please don't take my sunshine away. :D .. :( Blair hit me.
Blair says I'm a pantsy ass lovey dovey idiot. And should become a bitter man hating women, like herself. But I don't feel like being a butch lesbian right now. Maybe later.
So the other night we were hanging out in his room and it started getting all steamy and such. I've already told him once that I love him and he said he loves me too. We've only said it that one time to each other. But that night he said it again. It makes me feel awfuly good. Anyway, what I was getting at was it late and no one was home. And.. I don't know how to word it.. soo.. We had sex. My first time. Horay. I feel like a prude because even Pony wan't a virgin before me. Oh well. It wasn't perfect, but I'm glad he was my first. I'm not going to be dalousional and say I'm gonna be with him forever and have his babies. Don't get me wrong, I'd quiet enjoy being with Seth forever, but that ain't gonna happen. I'm not a dumb bitch.

I'm buying Blair's kid a pimped out big wheel. Because they are the shit. and if it's a girl I think we're naming it Larkin and not Addison (sorry Jamie).
haha the mom in this movie sounds like Mickey Mouse.
If it's a boy I want to name it Jayden or Brayden. ok never mind that sounds like two annoying preppy soc twins.
Blair's yelling at me in her creepy voice to get off because she wants to make cookies. Or sandwiches. One of the two.
Carson